In Memory of Michael Charles Sawyer

Everyone tells me that things happen for a reason. Why three men thought that money was important enough to take a human life, I still don't know. All I know is that there has not been one day that you are not on my mind. I got a tatto in memory of you. I listen to all the songs that remind me of you. There are pictures of you all over my room. However, I am sadly starting to realize that none of these things will ever bring you back. One thing that gives me comfort is that believing that you are an angel watching over me and all those you care about. Your greatest gift to me was teaching me how to be more open minded about things-even those I do not understand. Pennywise now being one of my favorite bands is proof of that. A song of theirs that reminds me a lot of you is "Fight til You Die." Because that is exactly what you did. Rest in peace, Michael...Until we meet again.

If Only I Knew

If only I knew that it was
the last time I'd see your face,
I would have held you a little closer
and never let go of your embrace.
If only I knew that it was
the last time I'd hear your voice,
I would have listened more intently
as if I had no other choice.
If only I knew that it was
the last time our lips would meet,
I would have said I love you
and cherished every minute.
If only I knew that it was
the last time we'd walk hand in hand,
I would have walked a little slower
and hoped that time would stand.
If only I knew that it was
the last time I'd be next to you,
I would have layed down by your side
and hoped that God would take me too.
As I sit here and wonder why
you were quickly taken away,
there must have been a reason
why you couldn't be here and stay.
Then I suddenly realize
all the signs of your presence,
God needed one more helper
up there in a place called heaven.
So good night my sweet angel
until we meet again,
you know I never will forget
the day that it all began.

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